Maria Mena Album

The way in which I fear is only a reflection of you,
The devastating child of the power trip you forced me through.
But how could he leave you,
Could he fuck that hard?
He left you,
Forget revenge;

And by all means ask your nine year old daughter to choose between you,
Don't stay friends.
Now littering on how he's the devil,
He's just been falsely portrayed.
But force her to go stay at his house once a week
'Cause you wanna get laid,
Ha-ha-ha-ha

Ask me why he scares me,
Do you wanna know why I'm angry?
Can't you tell I'm crying?
Mother, I don't feel good.

You will always be the bitter saddest part of me

Your girl's in the bathroom washing her hands again,
Why doesn't she eat?
Her father left us
What about me?
I can't rest,
I can't sleep.

Mommy loves you
I'm just tired of you and your other shit.
And you know I didn't mean to hit you,
But you were asking for it.
Ha-ha-ha-ha

Ask me why she scares me.
Do you wanna know why I'm angry?
Can't you tell I'm crying?
Mother, I don't feel good.

You will always be the bitter, saddest part of me.
You will always be the bitter, saddest part of me.

You will always be the bitter, saddest part of me.
You will always be the bitter, saddest part of me.
You will always be the bitter, saddest part of me.
You will always be the bitter, saddest part of me.

Our old world is hard to find.
I doubt it was ever mine
To keep.
Were you always this unkind?

We lie belly up
In the pool of us.
We lie belly up
In the pool of us.

I don't recognize your doubt.
Please say something,
Darling, shout at me
How unfair to shut me out.

We lie belly up
In the pool of us.
We lie belly up
In the pool of us.
We lie belly up
In the pool of us.
We lie belly up
In the pool of us.

I must say, I'll
Always love you,
Even if it hurts.

Have I driven us to this?
Our bickering
Has reached its limit.
I can't remember our last kiss.

We lie belly up
In the pool of us.
We lie belly up
In the pool of us.
We lie belly up
In the pool of us.
We lie belly up
In the pool of us.

I must say, I'll
Always love you,
Even if it hurts.
I must say, I'll
Always love you,
Even if it hurts.

(Whoa)

La la la la,
La la la la,
Belly up.

(Ah)

La la la la,
La la la la,
Belly up.

(Ah)

La la la la,
La la la la,
Belly up.

(Ow)

La la la la,
La la laa-la,

(Whoa)

I must say I'll
Always love you,
Even if it hurts.
I must say I'll
Always love you,
Even if it hurts.

You self distructive
Little girl
Pick yourself up
Don't blame the world
So you screwed up
But your gonna be ok
Now call your boyfriend
And apologize
You pushed him pretty
Far away last night
He really loves you
You just don't always love yourself.

All this time
Ohhh all this time
You have had it in you
Just sometimes you don't push
All this time
Ohhh all this time
You have had it in you
Just sometimes you don't push

Think all the mean girls
That pulled your hair
Are barefoot now and
Pregnant there
And you write pop songs
And get to travel around the world

All this time
Ohhh all this time
You have had it in you
Just sometimes you don't push
All this time
Ohhh all this time
You have had it in you
Just sometimes you don't push

So you've had some detours
Some stupid men
Now we know what not
to do again
Besides you lucked out
Finally

All this time
Ohhh all this time
You have had it in you
Just sometimes you don't push
All this time
Ohhh all this time
You have had it in you
Just sometimes you don't push

I can't laugh too hard, I'm on a diet.
I'm trying to lose myself,
You ought to try it.
Just starve for six days straight,
Oh, it's a riot.
Ev-e-ry Sun-day night.

I binge, and I barf, 'cause I carry the
Scars of an eight-year-old,
Whose mother applied the same rules
To her kid's body,
As her own.

I think you'll leave me soon,
Though I've no proof of it.
But I'll make it easier for you
By being a little bitch.
And this is just a theory,
But I think the reason
Why I'm scared you'll croak is:

The only male influence I've had,
After daddy up and left,
Were my mother's weekend lovers,
And their alcoholic breaths.

I'll tell you what caused it
If you'll handle the effects (the effects, the effects)
Yes, I'll tell you what caused it
If you'll handle the effects (the effects, the effects)
I'll tell you what caused it
If you'll handle the effects (the effects, the effects)
Yes, I'll tell you what caused it
If you'll handle the effects (whoa!)

I can't laugh too hard, I'm on a diet.
I'm trying to lose myself,
You ought to try it.
Just starve for six days straight,
Oh, it's a riot.
Ev-e-ry Sun-day night.

Each confession I make
Translates to you as an insult.
We must rid ourselves of this habit.
I once heard you say you'll never love anyone more.
Then why am I still fighting you?
And it's never felt like this, before.
No, we've never fought like this, before.
But you, should, know,

That I am on your side,
I am on your side.
Although it may seem useless.
I am on your side.

Your hands are bearing, worn down to the bone.
But you're still holding on me.
So I tighten my grip,
By god, I won't let you slip.
But can you breathe this way?
And it's never felt like this, before.
No, we've never fought like this, before.

And I am on your side,
I am on your side.
Although it may seem useless.
I am on your side.
I am on your side.

Love was never this frail or so good when it's good.
No, it's never felt like this, before.
No, it's never felt like this, before.

And I am on your side,
I am on your side.
Although it may seem useless.
I am on your side.
I am on your side.
I am on your side.

The ugly naked truth:
She starves me of my youth,
And I stand alone until
You catch on.
I swear it's not by choice.
But Ana has this voice,
And it calms me down,
It gives me purpose.

And it's alright,
I'm alright,
I want to be okay.
I've seen it before,
This eyesore; it's me.
Ohh, ohh, ohh, me.

I want out from under
This confining skin
That I so reluc-tantly live in.
My worth is measured solely
According to the scale.
I am heavy, but I feel frail.

And it's alright,
I'm alright,
I want to be okay.
I've seen it before,
This eyesore; it's me.
Ohh, ohh, ohh, ohhh.

Me.
Ohh, ohh, ohh,
Ohhh.
Ohhh.
(Me)
Ohh, ohh, ohh,
Ohhh.
Ohhh.
(Me)
Ohh, ohh, ohh,
Ohhh.
Ohhh.
Oh.

I was a backing track.
Saving my green voice's back.
Disguising the obvious,
That I had no-one to sing for.
I lived in a paper bin.
Which I lived curled up and forgotten in.
With an unfinished lovers hymn
Tattooed on my forehead.

Oh, oh, oh, where were you?
Had I known you then,
The outcome would have been better.

I got used to the treadmill love
Where no matter how fast you run,
You're stuck at the starting point,
Only exhausted.
I was the anonymous author
Of songs I'd not dared to share.
Lacking the audience of a lover's ear.

Oh, oh, oh,
Oh, oh, oh, where were you?
Had I know you then,
The outcome would have been better.

You could have prevented this.
You could have prevented this.
You could have prevented this.
You could have prevented this.

You could have prevented this.
You could have prevented this.
You could have prevented this.
You could have prevented -

Oh, oh, oh, where were you?
Had you known me then,
The outcome would have been better.

He allegedly fell for me
Through an open window.
Cracked his chest open
To reveal his heart.
Still skeptic of my intentions,
He made me swear:
That I would always be there,
I will always be here.

Oh I'm in love
Again, again.
And you may call me tomorrow my friend, yes.
You may kiss me again and again.
I'll hold on tight.

I climbed up on his shoulders
And laughed until I cried.
The view and I collide,
To see this through his eyes.
We never looked so pretty,
Never seemed so real.
I let go of myself now,
And tell him how I feel.

'Cause I'm in love
Again, again.
And you may call me tomorrow my friend, yes.
You may kiss me again and again.
I'll hold on tight.

So I let go of myself now,
And tell him how I feel.

'Cause I'm in love
Again, again.
And you may call me tomorrow my friend, yes.
You may kiss me again and again.
I'll hold on tight.

I'm in love,
Again, again.
And you may call me tomorrow my friend, yes.
You may kiss me again and again.
I'll hold on tight.
I'll hold on tight.
I'll hold on tight.

Self hatred grows in me like cancer,
I can’t locate its whereabouts but it's feasting on its host.
I expected him to have the answers.
I thought I taught him how to love me;
Now he fears me like a ghost.

Self-fulfilling prophecy,
You’re the only guaranteed loyalty;
In this town,
Full of violent mothers,
Cheating fathers,
Leaving lovers.
I swear to you, I’ll never love again.

This hunger grows inside me like a tumor,
The dizziness just compliments
This failure of a girl.
I’m settled now,
This show of mine consumes me,
But every pound I shed
Speaks volumes of my lack of self control.

Self-fulfilling prophecy,
You’re the only one that dare speak the truth about me;
In this town, with
Well intentioned mothers,
Starving daughters,
Worried lovers.
I swear to you, I’ll never eat again.

[Instrumental]

Self-fulfilling prophecy,
You never fail to comfort me;
In this town, filled with
Violent mothers,
Cheating fathers,
Leaving lovers.
Angry brothers,
Starving daughters,
Starving daughters,
Worried lovers.
I swear to you, I’ll never trust again.

Tonight
I want to give it all to you
In the darkness
There's so much I wanna do
And tonight
I want to lay it at your feet
Cause boy I was made for you
And boy, you were made for me

I was made for lovin' you, baby
You were made for lovin' me
I can't get enough of you, baby
Can you get enough of me?

Tonight
I want to see it in your eyes
And feel the magic
There's something that drives me wild
And tonight
We're gonna make it all come true
Cause boy I was made for you
And boy, you were made for me

I was made for lovin' you, baby
You were made for lovin' me
And I can't get enough of you, baby
Can you get enough of me?

Tonight
I want to give it all to you
In the darkness
There's so much I wanna do

I’ll always treasure the naïvety
Of the past we've shared.
Our bodies grew much faster than our minds,
But together we got good at stopping time.

My teen angst drove me to hurt myself,
And I made you watch;
Oh, the pain I must have caused,
But by staying around you saved my life (saved my life)

We were never meant to be lovers (ahh)
Just fellow late bloomers,
Who blossomed apart (ahh)
Who blossomed apart.

Watching my parents
Made me look for something destructive,
And there you were.
With all the characteristics of my mom;
Familiarity of home.

The geographic gap led to forced adulthood,
And your rage exposed.
I’m glad we left things when we did;
I doubt I’d survive another bloody nose (bloody nose)
We were never meant to be lovers (ahh)
We just mirrored each other’s self destructiveness (ahh)
Self destructiveness.

The spotlight burned in the room when we were together.
And we played our parts,
And I wore an imaginary TV screen,
So you never got to touch my heart (touch my heart)

We were never meant to be lovers (ahh)
Our egos fed off each other,
And died overweight (ahh)
And died overweight.

I thought I’d seen it all when you first walked in,
But you shut me up,
And challenged every wrong perception I’ve had of myself,
And you haven’t ever stopped.