Emery Album

Turn the cheval glass and find, corruption under my skin, and mine
You're so far from safety, put your fingers to your eyes
And steal yourself away

Repetition
Repetition
It will not be satisfied
It will not be satisfied
You can not accomplish this
You can not be satisfied

The worst isn't ever the curse of the cleverest lines
Sang the song of never, never believed that you meant it this time

It's time to back all your big words, so come on now, come on now
But you're all lipstick and cheap skirts,
You're the shining light until it hurts
Tonight, I'll make this bleed light up the sky with my misdeeds
Cause I hate I hate I hate this, I hate this
I fell from the first time

Fall was upon us with all the leaves turning,
You were so sure of yourself
You were asking me questions of us getting older
You hardly could catch your breath (I wanted anything else)
And I've asked, for the after remorse (To stay)
And still these hands, but it never takes, never takes
Old habits are so hard to break
So you fall, and circle through your life, that can't be seen
Avoid the brilliant lights that find you
Because when they do, you know you'll have to

It's time to back all your big words, so come on now, come on now
But you're all lipstick and cheap skirts,
You're the shining light until it hurts
Tonight, I'll make this bleed light up the sky with my misdeeds
Cause I hate I hate I hate this, I hate this
I fell from the first time

There's not enough wisdom or perception
Judge this now, take back your life
You are dying and the time you spent was wasted
On all the sick dreams of the lie (the lie, the lie)
Pull yourself out, made yourself in your own image
The praise you gave thousands of time
Lifted yourself up to the sky (the sky)
Bow before all that you've done
The sky, the sky, bow before all that you've done

In your brilliance, you became the only voice you trust

If it's true then I'm dead, right where I stand
Was the plan always this vicious
You thought that your faith would carry you home
But it left me there in the waiting room alone
As I planned what to say, to the ones I'd be leaving
All praise and honor seem so far away
I never saw this coming you can lose what you found
And here comes the breakdown

Careful, careful watch your mouth
You're talking like you're such the innocent (accidents, accidents are we all?)
These words will be the death of you
This I swear, this I know
The blame will find your hands
The blame has found these hands

It's hard to live this, to know if I mean it
To let you know you have me, that I never can forget it
And these last words I say here
Are the last words that I will share (last words that I will share)
So God I'm asking you do you even care

My hands are shaking and they won't stop,
As the world becomes a hospital room
I am not the one to ever disappear, but it's over now (over now)
Say it for the last time, one last time
I want to let go of this world for you

Careful, careful watch your mouth
You're talking like you're such the innocent (accidents, accidents are we all?)
These words will be the death of you
This I swear this I know
The blame will find your hands
The blame has found these hands

Hands held toward the sky
In the cool air of October
The whispers were always there
But they never caught up to your words
So will December find me all alone

The wishful face of the believer
Hope, but there is doubt that bleeds through
Still, I am arrested by your presence
Nothing will compare to you

And it hurt just to touch on the words
I said too much, I was just a kid
I thought that I could not be caught
And much less by a moment
But the words came flooding from my mouth

Some things will never surface
They capsized so long ago
I didn't want to still be sinking
But the anchor won't let me go

Those things that we thought were never there
Those ghosts we brought with us everywhere

From your birth, you were born into this
Never knowing when the walls would crack
In your defense, you were so unprepared
You said the things that you can't take back

Those things that we thought were never there
Those ghosts we brought with us everywhere

I want to explain this
But nothing's making sense
There's poison in my blood
It claimed both of our lives
That world we thought important
Crumbled into nothing

Will words define me?
I am more than a moment
Will words define me?
I am more than a moment

That day behind me, but I cannot shake it
I am more than a moment, more than a moment

And the beauty left my eyes
I was standing there with the rest of my life
Knowing I would never be the same, knowing I had changed
I had become more than what I had dreamed

The look of youth, but with hands stained
The look of youth, but with my hands stained

Tell them I'm sorry
Tell them I'm sorry
Does she know I'm sorry?
Guilty, guilty, I am guilty

How were those words in my head?
(I am so sorry for what I have done)
For somebody else, somebody else
I wish that I could have said
(They all asked me why and I know)
Anything else, anything else
(I know I still can't stop myself)

I want to explain this
But nothing's making sense
There's poison in my blood
It claimed both of our lives
That world we thought important
Crumbled into nothing

The bitter treasures so elementary

And you knew exactly when, you gave your heart and all of it
Without a thought of what you meant, you knew you couldn't live without this
So make your excuses now, that time has stolen all that you've earned
Make your excuses now, that time has stolen her
Time has stolen her

Tell me that I'm a fool
That I've exaggerated the situation
'Cause I've never been scared like this
Of losing more than I have to give
It's so unfair
I believed I could handle this
I swore I could fix everything
But I told myself lies all of these years

I told myself lies, all of these years
I told myself lies, all of these years

The fear that moves in and stays here
The words that replay in your ears
The grip that you held has weakened
Was the life that was yours forsaken
But I can't take my eyes off of you

And we were still so cool
Our bodies smooth and young (bodies smooth and young)
The dreams of getting older
Were never supposed to come (were never supposed to come)
The curse of perfect days
You forget just what you've made (forget just what you've made)
And you find yourself just praying
For something more than this life
Something more than this life

We wait for the doctors, to prescribe their medicines
And hold their bad news, as if later it will make more sense
But I've never been scared like this (It's so unfair)
Just waiting for my strength to give (I thought I could handle this)
But this is the rock, I broke myself against (I swore I could fix anything)

We believed we'd have our way (And we did, and we did)
The memories we have made (Everyday was the best day of my life)
I could never repay what I owe (I'll replace, I'll reload)
Even though I read the ending before the start
I would have never changed a single part

Tell me I'm a fool, tell me I'm just scared
Say I'm such a drama queen, it's not even fair
Let me see your eyes, the love that's right behind
And I'll promise you
That it will never die
It will never die

And we were still so cool
Our bodies smooth and young
The dreams of getting older
Were never supposed to come
The curse of perfect days
You forget just what you've made
And you find yourself just praying
For something more than this life

I want so much more than this life

Run you coward, you run
These words crippled my confidence
The hymn I can't escape from
This is over and done with
This race has made me more than weary, I am dead

I created everything here that I wanted to see
So was that your plan, to leave me out?
We were all reciting messages and pushing repeat
But this world you made, does it let you breath?

Does it let you feel anything but yourself?
When was the last time...
Does it let you breathe?
Does it let you feel anything but yourself?
When was the last time you saw anyone else?

Whispers and echoes of love fading

The plans you made, you wanted it
The bitter taste, you wanted it
What God became, you wanted it
But the one thing you need, you'll never get

There was more of you and less of me
You blamed it on the chemistry
Can you close your eyes when you rest your head?
It didn't have to be this way, but you wanted it

They were just calendar days
I'm sure it's all written down
But if you'll let me just ask
Is this how you bring the crowd to their feet?

You hurt because it wasn't about you
(About me?)
You're always scared the floor is gonna give way
(I call the shots)
We could end this, we could end this
Don't you ever tell me what I've got

Whispers and echoes of love fading

The plans you made, you wanted it
The bitter taste, you wanted it
What God became, you wanted it
But the one thing you need, you'll never get

There was more of you and less of me
You blamed it on the chemistry
Can you close your eyes when you rest your head?
It didn't have to be this way, but you wanted it

I wanted, I wanted, I wanted, I wanted this

You made it such a lonely world, such a very lonely world
You bent the answers into questions
You let the voice go unheard and you couldn't trust yourself
Cause what if everything you felt
Meant this was not yours alone

Every single word, every single little word that was said
And all the simple fears
And all the nights that you cried in your bed
Hoping I was there, but you told yourself
You're old and alone
But you were never the widow you left on your own

I was washed in the blood
I was born of a spirit but I drowned
When you found me out there
Rejoice, rejoice the old king is dead
Long live the new king
I am the new king

Whispers and echoes of love fading

The plans you made, you wanted it
The bitter taste, you wanted it
What God became, you wanted it
But the one thing you need, you'll never get

There was more of you and less of me
You blamed it on the chemistry
Can you close your eyes when you rest your head?
It didn't have to be this way, but you wanted it

Your self destruction has become mine
Your reflection contains nothing but vacant eyes
Those vacant eyes tell the stories, tell the stories
You forsake all loyalties for lies

You're too late to decide
This can't go right
Cause I got this tonight, I got this tonight

I wondered how hurt you'd be (the words we've become)
After you read this (were they yours or mine)
Did it even speed your heart beat (is that what you thought)
Or make you nervous? (thought that you would find)
I need say this, the best parts were hush, hush (what you waited for tonight, tonight)
The best parts were pure luck
But I swore that this time I was more than your hook up

Those vacant eyes looking back
To see your words under my skin
And I am more than a moment
But I had to give in
A person gets just one chance
To say what they really mean
You said yours, I'll say mine
It's all wasted, so fake it, at 19

The best years have passed you by
The best years have already passed
You forsake all loyalties for lies
You forsake all loyalties for lies

Your penny thoughts of leaving (I can still hear the sound)
Together from this town (we can work this out)
Convinced the boy inside me (with the last of my strength)
To let his guard down (I said every- thing)
You played me so well (enjoy your time left)
I didn't notice when the floor fell (without the blame)
From underneath my feet
I thought we were floating

Those vacant eyes looking back
To see your words under my skin
And I am more than a moment
But I had to give in
A person gets just one chance
To say what they really mean
You said yours, I'll say mine
It's all wasted, so fake it, at 19

The best years have passed you by
The best years have already passed you by

Is this the world passing by?
Or is it turning, turning?
This is the first time that I have ever looked inside myself
It was the first time that I ever looked inside myself
Now the world beneath my feet is turning, turning
Oh, this silly world keeps turning, turning away
All this time the world I knew
Was turning, turning
All this time that I loved you
You were turning, turning away

You got me falling in love with what's next
The personalities a casualty but I'm impressed
With the way you control the verbs
I'm moving in and out with words
Slow slow down. We don't have to rush.
How profound is the secret perception to the touch.
Is it just me or does this routine ever get inside your head?
And tell you all the little things that you wish had been said?
That you wish had been said?

When will I be old enough to do as I please?
These late nights are getting old.
There are better ways to your knees.
He reminded me to always button up.
We were daddy's little peach.
When will I be old enough?
When will I be old enough, to do as I please?

You've got me here. But you've got me wrong. (Got me wrong)
I'm not a cannibal but I cannot say I won't eat one of my own.
But with words slurred, I confess:
This smile isn't based on your subtle wit but the cut of your dress.
That makes that ugly morning seem so far away.
And if it ever comes at all, then I'll know just what to say.

When will I be old enough to do as I please?
These late nights are getting old.
There are better ways to your knees.
He reminded me to always button up.
We were daddy's little peach.
When will I be old enough?
When will I be old enough, to do as I please?
To do as I please?
To do as I please?

So wake up. Wake up it's the morning.
Another eight hours and the day's left you wanting reprieve.
Or at least religion.
But just relax, 'cause everyone's sinning.
Last night. The drinks. The words.
The kiss. The car. The apartment.
The cab fare. Fake digits.
Your hand. Your make up.
Your high heels, impeccable.
And all of it just to sit
With some wannabe's and counterfeits.
How respectable. How respectable.

Let's turn the lights on.
Let's turn the lights on.
Let's turn the lights on.
Let's turn the lights on, now.

When will I be old enough to do as I please?
When will I be old enough to do as I please? (Daddy's little peach)
When will I be old enough? (When will I be)
When will I be?
When will I be?

I'm addicted to bad decisions
I just can't ever help myself
(But this is different)
It sounds so convincing…
She's good for you
So good for us as well
You'll be the taste lingering on my lips
It'll be my hands clinging to your hips

I got get get get it out
Gotta get me out
Find the flaw
Find the switch
Just shut it down

Wouldn't matter if you couldn't go back
But you never even thought to ask
So I think if you would
Then I think that you should

Remember, remember, remember
(I blame this on an honest year)
We've done this all together
(You take this world she won't know)
Remember the imposters and pretenders
(You blame this on a modest year)
Together have done this to get her
So go get her

Is it possible to forget your name?
The identity running through your veins?
Was it worth these ends to play this part?
I never thought it could get this far
Vanity only brings in the new
But the sinking ship drowns every person here,
Including you

And tell yourself you were wrong when it hurts
But the unoriginal you would have never worked
Oh, you're the lucky one

It's hard to show when the stains bleed through,
She's gotta know this was never you
Gotta get get get it out
Gotta get me out
Just can't seem to shut shut shut it down
But the stain stays the same, it just reappear
But I can keep this all up for you, dear
Gotta get get get me out
Gotta get it out
Find the flaw
Find the switch
Just shut it down

Remember, remember, remember
(I blame this on an honest year)
We've done this all to get her
So go get her

Is it possible to forget your name?
The identity running through your veins?
Was it worth these ends to play this part?
I never thought it could get this far
Vanity only brings in the new
But the sinking ship drowns every person here
Including you.

Tell yourself it was wrong when it hurts
But the unoriginal you would have never worked

Oh, you're the lucky one
You're the lucky one
Someone would love you so much they would come undone
Oh, you're the lucky one

I'm addicted to bad decisions
I just can't ever help myself
Always thought I could fix the edges
But I'm torn and there's nothing left
I just can't stand the thought of you this way
So I said the things that I thought would make you stay

But I was wrong. I was wrong. I was wrong

Is it possible to forget your name?
The identity running through your veins?
Was it worth these ends to play this part?
I never thought it could get this far
Vanity only bring in the new
But the sinking ship drowns every person here,
Including you

Tell yourself you were wrong when it hurts
But the unoriginal you would have never worked
You're so unoriginal, it would have never worked

So is it courage or strength
And is that what I'm waiting for?
If I could just kill myself
Would it also kill the remorse?
I wanted so badly to catch a break
But I'm only breaking down.
I'm still here and standing
But if it's up to me
I don't think I'll be hanging around

The drink slips down my throat
And the burn cures nice and slow.
All the worst parts I wouldn't want you to see
The only parts left of me
Now, here I am
Just a kid without a better plan.
But it's the simple thoughts that haunt me the most.
I never got to see the west coast

Spent my nights just asking why
Would God let me become like this.
Was it a joke from the start?
Was I suppose to laugh more at it?
And everyone's quoting their teachers and preachers
But their words make me feel so alone.
No one ever says that they've had those thoughts
In the middle of the night.
No one ever admits that they wanted to take their life.

The drink slips down my throat
And the burn cures nice and slow
All the worst parts I wouldn't want you to see
The only parts left of me
Now, here I am
Just a kid without a better plan.
But it's the simple thoughts that haunt me the most.
I never got to see the west coast

But it's the life I dreamed I have
The love I find in my grasp
The words I could share with someone.
Those thoughts keep the breath in my lungs
That tomorrow my hope will become
To feel a love that can't be undone.
And save a wretch like me.

So if the drink slips down your throat
And the burn cures nice and slow.
All the worst parts you wouldn't want me to see
The same parts, I have in me
Now, scares me to we look this way
I feel just like you do
But when you're by yourself you should know
One day we got to see the west coast.

We've all got something to say,
When we open our mouths we have someone to blame.
We all have demons to face.
Situations evolve into something we can't explain.
It's like a thorn in my mind.
Digging deeper and deeper and killing the love that it finds.
My heart's a complex machine.
When it breaks it takes more
Than the doctors and technology to...

Fix me. Can you fix me?
I've been waiting so long to feel this heartbeat.
Will we ever really believe?
We're just caught in the thought that we deserve to be free.

Love's not a gift to repay,
With a hand full of money or words we can say.
There is no proper remark,
To be made that can change or determine who we really are.

Fix me. Can you fix me?
I've been waiting so long to feel this heartbeat.
Will we ever really believe?
We're just caught in the thought that we deserve to be free.

Screaming at the top of my lungs.
Does it make me understand what you've done?
How could I ever question You?
How could I ever doubt what You do?
Maybe this will tear me apart.
But maybe I'll go back to the start.
And honestly I can't believe that this is really happening.

Fix me. Jesus, fix me.
I've been waiting so long to feel this heartbeat.
Will we ever really believe?
We're just caught in the thought that we deserve to be free.
Fix me. Father, fix me.
I've been waiting so long to feel this heartbeat.
Will we ever really believe?
We're just caught in the thought that we deserve to be free.

[No lyrics]

And you knew exactly when, you gave your heart and all of it
Without a thought of what you meant, you knew you couldn't live without this
So make your excuses now, that time has stolen all that you've earned
Make your excuses now, that time has stolen her
Time has stolen her

Tell me that I'm a fool
That I've exaggerated the situation
'Cause I've never been scared like this
Of losing more than I have to give
It's so unfair
I believed I could handle this
I swore I could fix everything
But I told myself lies all of these years

I told myself lies, all of these years
I told myself lies, all of these years

The fear that moves in and stays here
The words that replay in your ears
The grip that you held has weakened
Was the life that was yours forsaken
But I can't take my eyes off of you

And we were still so cool
Our bodies smooth and young (bodies smooth and young)
The dreams of getting older
Were never supposed to come (were never supposed to come)
The curse of perfect days
You forget just what you've made (forget just what you've made)
And you find yourself just praying
For something more than this life
Something more than this life

We wait for the doctors, to prescribe their medicines
And hold their bad news, as if later it will make more sense
But I've never been scared like this (It's so unfair)
Just waiting for my strength to give (I thought I could handle this)
But this is the rock, I broke myself against (I swore I could fix anything)

We believed we'd have our way (And we did, and we did)
The memories we have made (Everyday was the best day of my life)
I could never repay what I owe (I'll replace, I'll reload)
Even though I read the ending before the start
I would have never changed a single part

Tell me I'm a fool, tell me I'm just scared
Say I'm such a drama queen, it's not even fair
Let me see your eyes, the love that's right behind
And I'll promise you
That it will never die
It will never die

And we were still so cool
Our bodies smooth and young
The dreams of getting older
Were never supposed to come
The curse of perfect days
You forget just what you've made
And you find yourself just praying
For something more than this life

I want so much more than this life