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Self-Destructive Pattern (2003)
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Motherfuck the way you think
You never made sense anyway
Building up to tear it down
You're co-dependent on apathy

By design you fucking sterilize
So you desensitize
Make it easier to swallow
Self-involved
You fucking took it all
Who's gonna take the fall
'Cause it's never gonna be the same
Change!

Don't wanna see, don't wanna think
Don't wanna speak for yourself
Don't wanna see, don't wanna think
Don't wanna speak for yourself

It's like a fucking disease
It's like a fucking disease
It's like a fucking disease and it shows

It's like a fucking disease
It's like a fucking disease
It's like a fucking disease and it shows

Repetition paves the way
All for you to weaken and sedate
So contrived and watered down
A fucking shadow of what should have been

Isolate so you can seperate
And fucking terminate
To diffuse the situation
Force on me a common enemy
With no identity
Now it's showing your perception too
Too!

Don't wanna see, don't wanna think
Don't wanna speak for yourself
Don't wanna see, don't wanna think
Don't wanna speak for yourself

It's like a fucking disease
It's like a fucking disease
It's like a fucking disease and it shows

It's like a fucking disease
It's like a fucking disease
It's like a fucking disease and it shows
Go!

You will never see
You will never see
You will never see
You will never see

Don't want to see
Don't want to see and it shows
Don't want to think
Don't want to think and it shows
Don't want to speak (It's like a fucking disease and it shows)
Don't want to speak and it shows
Don't want to speak (It's like a fucking disease and it shows)
Don't want to speak and it shows

Don't wanna see, don't wanna think
Don't wanna speak for yourself
Don't wanna see, don't wanna think
Don't wanna speak for yourself

It's like a fucking disease
It's like a fucking disease
It's like a fucking disease and it shows

It's like a fucking disease
It's like a fucking disease
It's like a fucking disease and it shows

It's like a fucking disease
It's like a fucking disease
It's like a fucking disease and it shows (It shows)

It's like a fucking disease
It's like a fucking disease
It's like a fucking disease and it shows (It shows)

It's like a fucking disease
It's like a fucking disease
It's like a fucking disease and it shows (It shows)

It's like a fucking disease
It's like a fucking disease
It's like a fucking disease and it shows (It shows)

. . .


I've given up everything
'Till it seems so fucking wrong
I've always been tied to you
Now the bond is fucking gone
You're just a victim
(Of) Your own decisions
(And) Your desperation
(Is) Like watching an accident

I reject
The way you need
To hurt yourself
To get to me
I will break
Away from you
My regret
Is knowing you

You've thrown away everything
And I hope you sympathize
Its kinda like slavery
To a world of fucking lies
You're not the victim
(Of) Your own addictions
(And) Your desperation
(Now) You won't get my sympathy

I reject
The way you need
Hurt yourself
To get to me
I will break
Away from you
My regret
Is knowing you

This...Feels like slavery
This...Ends it all
This...Feels like slavery
This...Ends it all

I reject
The way you need
To hurt yourself
To get to me
I will break
Away from you
My regret
Is knowing you

This...Feels like slavery
This...Ends it all
This...Feels like slavery
This...Ends it all
This...Feels like slavery
This...Ends it all

. . .


The black and cold reminds me
Of all the distance we have crossed
And if your darkness finds me
I could never be more lost

But I'm not the one who seeks your protection
I'm not the one to share the disguise
And I'm not the one who reeks of rejection
I'm not the one to tear the same way twice

You push from the inside, smothered
You push from the inside out, smothered
You push from the inside, smothered
You push from the inside out

Here all your walls surround me
They're closing in, they block my sight
The violence around me
Found me when I could not fight

But I'm not the one to take your direction
I'm not the one who wears the disguise
And I'm not the one to share your reflection
I'm not the one you break the same way twice

You push from the inside, smothered
You push from the inside out, smothered
You push from the inside, smothered
You push from the inside out

I will never win
I will never win with you
I will never win
I will never win with you

I read you
I feel you
Wound up no more than you know
I hate you
I still do
Everytime you let me go

You push from the inside, smothered
You push from the inside out, smothered
You push from the inside, smothered
You push from the inside out

(I will never win) You push from the inside
(I will never win with you) You push from the inside
(I will never win) You push from the inside
(I will never win with you) You push from the inside

Smothered, I'm smothered

. . .


Punctured lungs

I'm out of breath
This time I'm suffocating
I've had enough now
Too numb, there's no resisting
Becoming one with all your failure
No coming back now
This bridge has been burned

Try to cut the chord, tear away
Or I will never be the same
Trust, breaks my bone, violence show
Reject and throw it all away

Consume the fight in me
Suspend reality
If it stops the room from spinning
Repressed identity
Escape reality

You killed the cause
This keeps repeating
Live through the loss now
Redeem your enemies
Recycled thoughts
Feed your delusion
Your lie outgrows you
Becomes it's own truth

Still it seems so wrong, the way you think
And I will never understand
Faith, broke like bone, weakness shown
You lost it and threw it all away

Consume the fight in me
Suspend reality
If it stops the room from spinning
Repressed identity
Escape reality
If it stops the room from spinning

Puncture my lungs
Puncture my lungs

Punctured lungs

I've never felt your emptiness
It makes me sick now

Obsessive with your reason
Compulsive with your failure

Try to cut the chord, tear away
Or I will never be the same
Trust, breaks my bone, violence show
Reject and throw it all away

Consume the fight in me
Suspend reality
If it stops the room from spinning
Repressed identity
Escape reality
If it stops the room from spinning
Consume the fight in me
Suspend reality
If it stops the room from spinning

How could you live with yourself?
How could you live with yourself?
How could you live like yourself?
How could you live like yourself?

. . .


The irritation we're pretending not to show
Has replaced the motivation that I had not long ago

I know that
I, I don't ever wanna be the one to make you forget it
I, I don't ever wanna be the one to make you resent it
I, I don't ever wanna be the one to make you repress it
I, I don't ever wanna be, ever wanna be, ever wanna be

It's the beginning of the end and I
Don't know where we lost control
It's the beginning of the end and I
Know that I am all alone

Interrogation has replaced the trust we had
Your misguided accusations helping me to turn my back

I know that
I, I don't ever wanna be the one to make you divide it
I, I don't ever wanna be the one to make you deny it
I, I don't ever wanna be the one to make you deprive it
I, I don't ever wanna be never wanna be never wanna be

It's the beginning of the end and I
Don't know where we lost control
It's the beginning of the end and I
Know that I am all alone

I thought that we would find our way
I thought our life would be okay
I thought that you believed in me
But now it seems so far away

The life we knew before is gone
There is no compromising
The life you save will be your own
To find your inner senses
To find your inner senses
To find your inner senses

It's the beginning of the end and I
Don't know where we lost control
It's the beginning of the end and I
Know that I am all alone

It's the beginning of the end and I
Don't know where we lost control
It's the beginning of the end and I
Know that I am all alone

. . .


You're the one who, you're the one who steals, the life from.
I'm the one who feels, the fallen.

I believe you're nothing but a problem.
Everything is so vague.
You're just a mother fuckin' sight to see and time will block the vision.
Life with you is so vague, it's like I'm living in a dream.

Chorus: I have wondered why this always happens.
Everything just falls away.
Soon you'll be the one who is forgotten.
It's so close, but it's so far away.

You're the one who.
You're the disbelief.
I watch you.
Thought you could achieve, or try to.
Once I thought this life was never ending.
Must have been my mistake.
You're just a mother fucking accidental venting and abusing.
I should've known that you and your intentions were for bad

Chorus: I have wondered why this always happens.
Everything just falls away.
Soon you'll be the one who is forgotten.
It's so close, but it's so far away.

You're the one who fed the violence.
I'm the one who broke the silence.
I will sew the whole you left inside me.
Leaving you in the past, I will relieve.

Chorus x2: I have wondered why this always happens.
Everything just falls away.
Soon you'll be the one who is forgotten.
It's so close, but it's so far away.

It's so close but it's so far away.

. . .


Feel the tension of rejection
Bleach it out with the therapy

The confusion and seclusion
Turns it into my deformity

Never trusted it, Maladjusted
I've become my own worst enemy

The aggravation in my fixation
Keeps it all controlled inside of me

See it all collapsing it's all around me
This condition is killing me

The isolation still surrounds me
In remission but it's killing me

(I) It's what I can't control
(Can't) What I can't control
(Con) What I can't control
(Trol) In me

Born again
I feel so hollow
Torn again
My senses fade (Fade)
Mourn again
Without the sorrow
Born again
Without the blame (Blame)

Force a new solution it's all inside me
In remission but it's killing me

Evolution is divided
In remission but it's killing me

(I) It's what I can't control
(Can't) What I can't control
(Con) What I can't control
(Trol) In me

Born again
I feel so hollow
Torn again
My senses fade (Fade)
Mourn again
Without the sorrow
Born again
Without the blame (Blame)

I can't increase the treatment
It won't suppress the feelings
Or stop the way I'm getting used to the pain

I can't increase the treatment
It won't suppress the feelings
Or stop the way I'm getting used to the pain

Breaking down
Self-destructive pattern
Breaking down
Self-destructive pattern

(I) It's what I can't control
(Can't) What I can't control
(Con) What I can't control
(Trol) In me

Born again
I feel so hollow
Torn again
My senses fade
Mourn again
Without the sorrow
Born again
Without the blame

. . .


You wear a cheap disguise
Your only vice until the end
Don't have an alibi
You never try
You just condemn

You pressure everything
You never bring
You take away
I can no longer breathe
You've taken me and everything too

(Far) To me it's so disgusting
(Wrong) I push myself away
(Far) My sanity is rusting
(Wrong) I look the other way

This is a war I can't fight
I can't let you tear me down
I will ignore all these lies
You will never tear me down

I sit and contemplate
How you sedate what's in my head
I will not instigate or emulate
I won't pretend

You'll never understand
You just demand to get your way
How all of this began
I never ran, and now it's gone too

(Far) To me it's so disgusting
(Wrong) I push myself away
(Far?) My sanity is rusting
(Wrong) I look the other way

This is a war I can't fight
I can't let you tear me down
I will ignore all these lies
You will never tear me down

This is a war I can't fight
I can't let you tear me down
I will ignore all these lies
You will never tear me down

Never tear me down
Never tear me

This is a war I can't fight
I can't let you tear me down
I will ignore all these lies
You will never tear me down

This is a war I can't fight
I can't let you tear me down
I will ignore all these lies
You will never tear me down

This is a war I can't fight
I can't let you tear me down
I will ignore all these lies
You will never tear me down

Never tear me
Never tear me down
Never tear me
Never tear me down

. . .


Stillborn!

I don't think you want to be the one to see inside yourself
I don't think you want to understand that it clouds up your mind
I don't think you want to undermine
I don't think you want the bottom line
I don't think you wanna see inside this God that you've created

(No) You don't even listen
You don't even hear me till I scream at you
(Now) I see your intention
A new intervention just to wear me down
(Breed) Selected division
You're on a collision course with your beliefs
(Find) A new evolution
Your full of solutions now that you're born again

Reborn
Like a mother fucking
Stillborn
All devoid of feeling
Reborn
Like a mother fucking
Stillborn
All devoid of feeling

I don't think you'll ever be the one to take the blame yourself
I don't think you'd even want to try to see through different eyes
I don't think you want to sacrifice
I don't think you want to fucking try
I don't think you wanna step outside this lie that's been imbedded

(Think) It's all a delvusion
Relieve your confusion when you put me down
(Fear) Afraid to accept it
You only defend it 'cause it's handed down
(Faith) It's all on the surface
It's only convienient when you follow through
(No) I'm not not gonna give in
You're already beaten when your born again

Reborn
Like a mother fucking
Stillborn
All devoid of feeling
Reborn
Like a mother fucking
Stillborn
All devoid of feeling

Stillborn!

It's time to make the cut
And let you bleed for yourself on your own
Of all the things I need
Is just for you to stop from judging me

Sick!
So get the fuck away from me
You make me
Sick!
So stay the fuck away from me
Away from me

Reborn
Like a mother fucking
Stillborn
All devoid of feeling
Reborn
Like a mother fucking
Stillborn
All devoid of feeling

Reborn
Like a mother fucking
Stillborn
All devoid of feeling
Reborn
Like a mother fucking
Stillborn
All devoid of feeling

. . .


Now your failure feeds the contempt
Now your failure feeds the contempt

I can't sedate the way you bring me down
I can't relieve the pain
I can't reduce the failure you've become
I can't accept the blame
Now

Now your failure feeds the contempt
You imitate
The things you think
That isolate what I want
I can't get through
It's never you
It's showing through and it's wrong

You pushed me too far
And I'm tired now
It all falls apart
Now I'm finally down

I hate the way you turn this all around
So you can bleach your shame
Apology is not an option now
It won't erase the blame
Now

Now your failure feeds the contempt
It's nothing new
I'll suffer through
It's all in you and you're wrong
I compensate
You mutilate
It separates and we're done

You pushed me too far
And I'm tired now
It all falls apart
Now I'm finally down

You pushed me too far (Pushing me, pushing me)
And I'm tired now (Pushing me too far)
It all falls apart (Pushing me, pushing me)
Now I'm finally down (Pushing me too far)

(Far)
I can't sedate the way you're breaking me
You're breaking me down
(Too far)
I can't sedate the way you're breaking me
You're breaking me down
(Pushed me)
I can't sedate the way you're breaking me
You're breaking me down
(Too far)
I can't sedate the way you're breaking me
You're breaking me down

Now your failure feeds the contempt

You pushed me too far
And I'm tired now
It all falls apart
Now I'm finally down

You pushed me too far (Pushing me, pushing me)
And I'm tired now (Pushing me too far)
It all falls apart (Pushing me, pushing me)
Now I'm finally down (Pushing me too far)

. . .


Give me life, give me faith, give me something to see
Give me life, give me change, give me somwhere to be
Give me love, give me hate, tell me what to believe
I don't care who you're imitating

You think the World's beginning
In truth it's really ending
My disillusioned mind is wasted away

Until I break
Until I bend
Until I fall back on my faith again
Until my World is caving in
Until I fall back on my faith again

Keep me dumb, keep me small, keep me closer to you
Keep me still, keep it all, keep away from the truth
Keep me here, keep me cool 'cause it's already done
Everything is so intimidating

You are the one reflection
Created false rejection
I let you in and now you won't go away

Until I break
Until I bend
Until I fall back on my faith again
Until my World is caving in
Until I fall back on my faith again

I think the end is closer now
(I think the end is closer now)
You took the life inside me now
(You took the life inside me now)
Is the way you're checking out?
(Oh, yeah)
You are the one who's running now
(You are the one who's) Running now
(You are the one who's) Running now
(You are the one who's) Running now

You are the one reflection
Created false rejection
I let you in and now you won't go away

Until I break
Until I bend
Until I fall back on my faith again
Until my World is caving in
Until I fall back on my faith again

Until I break
Until I break
Until I break
Until I break
Until I break

. . .


Put on another face
They always take the place
Of all the things that you have become

Your incivility is nothing new to me
It's always something that made you what you

(Are) You're dead inside
(Dead) You killed your pride
(Kill) I won't believe
(Me) And no one cares
(Please) Your insecurity
(Just) The failure that it breeds
(Kill) And all your misery
(Me) Is coming back to me

Save yourself the pain
And go away
For the rest of my life
Bury you today
I separate
For the rest of my life
Life!

You give me countless light
And hope I simplify
You hit my only nerve
And that is all it took

Separate from you
Let it go, you let it go
Evolution
Thrown away, you're thrown away, you're gone

(Please) I'm done with you
(Just) Don't follow through
(Kill) I won't be mad
(Me) Cause you don't care
(Please) The way you're suffering
(Just) It's all the same to me
(Kill) Degradability
(Me) You carry all the time

Save yourself the pain
And go away
For the rest of my life
Bury you today
I separate
For the rest of my life

Rest of my life!
Rest of my life!
Rest of my life!

Your dillusion
Claim confusion
Easier to pass the blame on
All your hatred
Seemed so wasted
You're the one who's dead inside me

You're fucking dead to me
You're fucking dead to me
You're fucking dead to me
You're fucking dead to me

You're fucking dead to me
You're fucking dead to me
You're fucking dead to me
You're fucking dead

You're fucking dead to me
You're fucking dead to me
You're fucking dead to me
You're fucking
You're fucking dead!

. . .


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