Paint a picture of black clouds over my head
With no light shining through them
And a backdrop colored dark red
Every road leads me to
Barricades so I can’t see
The meaning of these dreadful times
I wear this mask to hide my cries
Painful thoughts I try to explain them
But the words come out silent
I guess I’m all alone
I try to dream but they all come out nightmares
The same one where I stand there
The gun pointing at my head
Why do I deserve this ache
I’ve try so hard to take away
The ugliness that’s built inside
The whirlwind within my mind
Burden makes me suffocate
To the point that I might break
All I want is a simple life
Do what I can to make it by
Boundaries growing thin
Between what’s real and fake
Reality a nightmare
Awake to find myself
Looking over me
Come to find out this was not a dream
Can I be changed or am I locked inside here
Sever the noose to relieve all this pressure
Please send an angel down for her to save me
Killing these demons trapped inside this dark sleep
Heart beating fast
Cannot relax
Looking into the barrel that I can’t hold back
I’ve got to find a way to solve this problem
Find a way to stop this violence
Towards myself I’ve caused this grievance
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