Pulley Album

Full of anger still out of control
Walking on these eggshells the peace my inner soul
Lying on the doorstep where I used to rest my head
Found another fortune back where I began
I don't know if I'll be there for you anymore
Don't feel so lucky know that I am proud
Not giving you excuses not looking for
Going back to days of old in search for something new
Seeing through the eyes you give me all that we go through
Fit the pieces to this puzzle I've outgrown
I don't know what you feel sorry for
I see you on the back page
Secrets that you keep for you
I find out on my own
See you from the last page

Hooray for me!
Call me stupid, call me crazy, call me what you will
I don't write this music with intent to pay my bills
Cookie cut-out cardboard bands and we all sound the same
Guess I'm just a hypocrite for living out my dreams
May not make a difference, not trying to make you see
May not make much sense to you, but oh it does to me
When it's all been said and done, I know that I had fun

I'll take it to the grave with me
This music still lives
What can I say that I haven't said before?

Not afraid to be mistaken, not afraid to try
Not afraid to be uncertain, not afraid to die
When the words stop coming out, the music finally stops
Pound my head against the wall, my bubble has been popped
Lost the vibe, the fluid feel, the ink's gone from my pen
Picked apart, there's nothing left will it come back again?
When it's all been said and done, I know that I had fun

I'll take it to the grave with me
This music still lives...

It's the tale of a broken man
I just can't find the words, my story goes unheard
The tale of a broken man
Just can't find the words, my story goes unheard
The tale of a broken man, broken man
Broken!

All these names I can't complain
Thoughts of you were everything
All the fun is over now
The smiles off my face
The words are scratched it's hard to read
THe passions gone that's best for me
Every dog must have it's day
Believing in sincerity
Feeling numb she slammed the door
Left to think there's so much more
Out of sight now out of mind
Are you truly gone?
Goodbye corrections to the promises you break
We finally found your honesty's a lie
You lead your army till there's nothing left
And no one to return
Now you're standing all alone
Who would think that we could show personality?

It's dark I see through the smoke we breathe
It's loud I can't hear the songs we play
Play fast everything keeps going slow
Taken down to size I'm feeling
Feel the scars beneath my clothes
Covers what I want to show
Open mind my heart is open too
Take back everything you once said
No more we're not going anywhere
Forget don't remember anything
Taken down to size I'm feeling
So hard why's it hard to see
Realize how it's going to be
Holy wars
Alienate

Like a fuse I'm ready for fire
Spark me up and I mean
Simple seems to just a few
I trust what I am saying
Every day I can't believe what's going on around me
Down the halls I see it everywhere
I have to tell you
Something about me
I wake up with this splitting difference
Doesn't leave anything for me
I'll take my half
My pockets they're empty
Where we're headed to the life in the fast lane
Wait a minute now you're busted like a bone
Paid the price for a crime we shared
And you got off free
Voices call from in your head
Laughing in and screaming

Why can't you take on your own identity
You only live by what other people see
Thoughts and views you cloned
What are you gonna do when the world stands still
And you're all alone with the emptiness you feel
An empty stare with your past washed up
I pity you and the life you made up
You can't impress me I know what is real
The mask is melting off your face
Melting away
What are you gonna do when the world stands still
And you're all alone with the emptiness you feel
An empty stare with your past washed up
I pity you and the life you made up
Every day there's a side of you
Hiding from a world that respects you
Lonely heart thinker on a long lost trip
You're just a reflection of the people you're with

Here again wish I was somewhere else
What's worse than feeling by yourself?
Judgmental condescending thoughts go on still pretending
Barely by on what we have
Something for nothing
How many days until I'm rested
Something for something
Drink from the glass like there's no tomorrow
Times they fly and then fashion dies
Played the cards and we tried to make it run
Seems like the answers were left
I've always tried to remember when
Clothes you'd wear styles of your hair
Lasting impressions experienced
My senses they'll function becoming aware
Smaller and smaller somewhere you'll find
Before it ends so suddenly
Take a look see what you thought you'd be
Modeled perfection photocopied
Call you or you call me
Everything's so incomplete
Played the cards and tried to make it run
Seems like the answers were left
I'm still looking for the answer

She had a dream that dated back to school
In a time when things faded out so
Chased it with desire set the world on fire
Left all her friends and family behind
Pictures made her dirty movies far from clean
DId the things she thought she'd never do
Stepping-stones to glory spiral down to hell
Cover up the wounds they won't come clean
Electrified enough money buys
Too many bills it's time to kill
Lucky I resist all temptations
Revolving doors go round
Her appearance worse a need
A scene that's hard to be noticed
Do everything to chase her dream
Living only to touch the moon
But you never leave the ground
They'll try to take away your will
Try to push you down
Purified not so qualified
Ever since the day that it changed your life
Terrified by the world outside
They told me that I would never fit in
Next time I think I'll run away

Here always looking in
Meet you from the outside
That's just how it's been
Surreal existence isn't clear
Occupy the time waste away the years
A thousand miles connected by a line
Feeling helpless when we argue hang up all the time
Call you back I know you're there talk to the machine
This pictures painted clearly I'm still on the outside
Again brought down to my knees
Fought for resolution L.A. girl you quit
Forget conquered all the demons time to plant new seeds
Staring at the ocean
Believe me when I say that I'm sincere
My dreams will take me where I want to go from here
To you I bid a fond farewell with strength to walk alone
This pictures painted clearly I'm still on the outside

Did destiny choose you
What will it take to move you
Inspiration won't come cheap
It's your turn to take that leap
And let your thoughts fall where they may
When you choose your place to stay

Cast away the hopes of someone ever changing you
But the thrill it takes to get there is something all brand new
The reasons why I stay are always justified
I never told you what that means
I never told you anything
Step aside
Take a breath
Let it be
Don't look back
It's gonna free your mind
Free your mind
After everyone you walk on you turn your head away
I know it burns you up inside but your walls run so high
I've got something to tell you
I know you know what it means
I know it's something you see
The pain that hides so deep inside
Will soon show its head
The truth will surface
As you lie awake
And the dream will be dead

Wake up in the morning with that same sick feeling
Another day alone is another day with you
Don't know why I hand on don't know how to let go
Just feels like there's nowhere else to go
Why can't you take the pain away from me
Give me all the answers show me how to breathe
Wake up in the morning with a needle in my head
You walk alone
I'll set you free
You won't ever have
No one to call like me
Wasting all this time with my soul on the line
Letting go the freedom that's been held inside
The more you get to know me the less that you know
Take a look around you see it's all a show
Wake up in the morning with a needle in my head

We're hanging out you want to go
the sink is full of yesterday's remains
Intelligence somewhat dim
You had the key to life did you make it fit
Which way is up which way is down
The person staring back at you
Always looks like he's somebody else
Overcome the greatest odds
Sacrifice is where the focus stems
Absolute the motion forward
Circumstance tells me I'll be back again
Which way is up which way is down
Pointing out the things you see
Grateful for what we have found
You go by that I know everything
That's enough for me
Wearing all the promises on you
Confidence comes with time gone by
Reach the top
Remember how to feel the glow
Silenced on the deaf ears
Responsible for everything it knows