Madina Lake Album

My hands shake cuz today,
I know you're gonna break my heart and,
My life without you in it
Is a life not worth living.
I'll be strong but i wish i was someone else,
Anyone but me tonight

Here i stand (Here i stand)
All alone, (Here i stand)
Tonight (Here i stand)
And i wish i was strong enough to breathe (Here i stand)
Without you, (Here i stand)
In my life, (Here i stand)
I wish i was anyone but me.

So I'll start to pretend im ok
But you should know by now that
My life is smoke and mirrors,
The one thing is crystal clear
That i'm the one wishing i was someone else,
Anyone but me tonight

Here i stand (Here i stand)
All alone, (Here i stand)
Tonight (Here i stand)
And i wish i was strong enough to breathe (Here i stand)
Without you, (Here i stand)
In my life, (Here i stand)
I wish i was anyone but me.

(Where do we go?) (Where do we go?)

Inside i start to fall apart. (Where do we go?)
And i'll pretend im holding on (Where do we go?)
So i guess ill bleed in silence.(In silence)
I guess i'll bleed in silence.

Here i stand (Here i stand)
All alone, (Here i stand)
Tonight (Here i stand)
And i wish i was strong enough to breathe (Here i stand)
Without you, (Here i stand)
In my life, (Here i stand)
I wish i was anyone but me.

Here i stand (Here i stand)
All alone, (Here i stand)
Tonight (Here i stand)
And i wish i was strong enough to breathe (Here i stand)
Without you, (Here i stand)
In my life, (Here i stand)
I wish i was anyone but me.

I Remember My First Kiss
The Butterflies, I Know You Felt Them Too
I Can Still Taste Your Lips
That Night I Wrapped Up All My Love In You
But Deep Inside, I Always Knew
I Must Hate Myself
Cause I Also Knew What Day You'd Destroy Me

But There's Something I've Gotta Know
(Before We Say Goodbye)
Will I See You Again?
(Somewhere In Another Life)

I Remember Our First Fight
Your Skeletons Were All Up Over You
I Can Still Taste That Night
When You Told Me You'd Been Beat Up And Abused
You'd Had It All, Bruised Mouths Don't Die
It's Not Your Fault, It Was Never Your Fault
That Evil World For An Innocent Girl
It's Not Your Fault, It Was Never Your Fault

There's Something I've Gotta Know
(Before We Say Goodbye)
Will I See You Again?
(Somewhere In Another Life)
Could've Tried To Be Okay
(But I Need You To Know)
Wherever You Are Now
(That Here We Wouldn't Go)

You Were Always Great At Running Away
But You Said Forever, You Promised Forever
I Forgive You, I've Forgiven You
And Now I Just Miss You, I'll Always Remember You

Go!

There's Something I've Gotta Know
(Before We Say Goodbye)
Will I See You Again?
(Somewhere In Another Life)
Could've Tried To Be Okay
(But I Need You To Know)
Wherever You Are Now
(That Here We Wouldn't Go)

She wraps her tragic moments tightly around her neck
Then she hangs herself with them as i try to disconnect
Cuz she wants to choke on her life again
Breathing it in like a deadly poison.

She cries cuz she's lost and she doesn't even know what she wants
Her eyes go cold and she begs the world to just let her go

She lives and breathes in a wrold that brought her to her knees
And now i'm addicted to her cuz that girl is just like me
And i'm gonna choke on her life again
Im breathing it in like a deadly poison.
Cuz i just want to get through to her,
Before her last breath.

She cries cuz she's lost and she doesn't even know what she wants
Her eyes go cold and she begs the world to just let her go

She cries cuz she's lost and she doesn't even know what she wants
And she hides all alone inside the pain that she wont let go
Watching her life pass her by, watching it all through her watering eyes
But i'll be chasing dragonflies from her darkest skies until the day she dies.

It's late at night the worlds asleep
And I'm trying not to think
I take some pills cuz my mind bleeds
I'm thinking what is wrong with me
Because the only thing i know
About honesty
Is every lie i told
That you believed

I'm afraid, To be alone
I'm afraid, That one day you'll find out

And you'll be amazed
At the secrets i keep
You'll be amazed
At my mouth full of lies
I'm too afraid to come clean
My life's still free in the house of cards

Now i can't look you in your eye's
Because the guilt is killing me
I try disconnect my heart again
Just so i can breathe
I wanna be myself again
But i just can't coz

I'm afraid, To be alone
I'm afraid, That one day you'll find out

And you'll be amazed
At the secrets i keep
You'll be amazed
At my mouth full of lies
I'm too afraid to come clean
My life's still free in the house of cards

It's such a shame what I've become
After years of breaking down
My whole life has come undone
Cuz I'm trying to fake it all
And I know that you love someone
But that someone isn't me
Isn't me
No

You'll be amazed
You'll be amazed
You'll be amazed
You'll be amazed

(...)

And you'll be amazed
At the secrets i keep
You'll be amazed
At my mouth full of lies
I'm too afraid to come clean
My life's still free in the house of cards

You'll be amazed
You'll be amazed

Too long in the same place
I'm sinking into this town.
I've charmed the same old snakes
I think we gotta get out
Before I break away from me
Cuz this place is my lobotomy.
Imagine we were dead
Counting all the things we never did.

I remember when you told me
I should live like I'm dying
And not to close my eyes
While everything burns.

What are we waiting for?
These years are dying slowly,
Today is still in front of us
And we're breaking out
Cuz today is now or never.

I can't contemplate the earth
All while my heads in the sand
Cuz I've been buried alive
So take my bleeding hands
And breathe life into me
Cuz right now I'm suffocating.
So imagine we were dead
Counting all the things we never did.

I remember when you told me
I should live like I'm dying
And not to close my eyes while
Everything burns.

What are we waiting for?
These years are dying slowly,
Today is still in front of us
And we're breaking out
Cuz today is now or never.

I don't want a life of agony
I wont be another tragedy
And close my eyes while everything burns.
And I won't pretend I don't exist
Invisible until I turn to dust,
Open your eyes we're still alive.

Standing still is criminal
And never lasts forever.
The safest place in life is now,
Today's the day we're breaking out..

I remember when you told me
I should live like I'm dying
And not to close my eyes
While everything burns.

What are we waiting for?
These years are dying slowly,
Today is still in front of us
And we're breaking out
Cuz today is now or never.

The way you dance it turns me on
but you know that i'm spoken for
the way your sweat drips off your chest
you know that i'm wanting more

the lies the sex the heat this sweat
and nothing else matters
you call my name without your dress

i already forgot her
you have no idea what you do to me
and you, you have no idea what your doing to me

pandora, i don't know how you carved your way into my heart
and i don't know how you snuck your way into my house
but i know that i'll regret what i did
and i know i'll regret it forever as i throw my life away, pandora

the girl i love sits at home and i know that shes lonely
but i'm watching you take off your clothes
your the star of this movie
the love the hate the guilt my fate is hanging in the balance
you have no idea what you do to me
oh you don't even care what you mean to me

pandora, i don't know how you carved your way into my heart
and i don't know how you snuck your way into my house
but i know that i'll regret what i did
and i know i'll regret it forever as i throw my life away, pandora

and by the time that i come home shes already sleeping
sit on the bed and take off my clothes
my nerves their shaking
the lies the sex the heat this sweat
your body is quaking
the love the hate the guilt my fate
against this temptress

pandora, i don't know how you carved your way into my heart
and i don't know how you snuck your way into my house
but i know that i'll regret what i did
and i know ill regret it forever as i throw my life away (forever as i throw my life away)
forever as i throw my life away, pandora

We walk past a dead end street to the top of a hill so we can be alone.
Under the moon it's beautiful.
The stars clear the black of night when I’m with you.
Nervously I take your hand and promise you I'll take you for a ride...
"Someday we'll have it all, you and we're gonna be stars"
We’ll runaway from everything you hate,
runaway to everything you've wanted
take my hand let's get famous.
Runaway from everything you've fought
runaway to everything you've loved
take my hand lets get famous
I’m amazing how things can change.
How the real world can chase our dreams away.
How did you give up so easily?
Cuz I’d rather make them bury me... so let's
Runaway from everything you hate,
runaway to everything you've wanted
take my hand let's get famous.
Runaway from everything you've fought
runaway to everything you've loved
take my hand lets get famous
Our names in lights across the sky,
it's beautiful and our whole lives
will be headlines across the whole world...

I'll take your crystal ball
and make this crystal clear, that i won't stand back
and i won't drown right here
i'll never wait
i'll make a million mistakes
but to be content is to be a disgrace

they crawl in your head
they dig in your bones if you let them, they wont let go
they have no hope
they have no soul if you let them they'll take yours

i think it feels better on the other side
cause their grass is green and your grass is diseased
every day drowns in lethargy but to be content is to burn way

they crawl in your head
they dig in your bones if you let them, they wont let go
they have no hope
they have no soul if you let them they'll take yours

when you die you want the world to remember you for who you really are
and when you die you want to love yourself cause you'll be all alone

they crawl in your head
they dig in your bones if you let them, they wont let go
they have no hope
they have no soul if you let them they'll take yours
they crawl in your head
don't fear the unknown, cause you'll let them take control
so let yourself go, and let yourself go don't you let 'em take you a hold

She looked at me her eyes were watering
Then i knew that this was about to end
Frozen in that moment, Time was standing still
I could feel my heart,

Goodbye, She said
Theres someone in this world for you
So goodluck, She said
I went and found somebody new

And i gave you every waking moment
I gave you everything you wanted
And now, I know your giving me up

She walked away and i could hardly breath
Turn around and fell down to my knees
I'm shivering as the truth is settling
I'm sure tomorrow is nothing todo

So before, You go
Could you just leave me one more kiss?

And i gave you every waking moment
I gave you everything you wanted
And now, I know your giving me up

And i, Can't lie still
When theres someone else beside you
And i, Can cry still
Cuz i'm all alone this time

I gave you everything you wanted
And now, I know your giving me up

I remember when you were falling
And i was their just holding onto you
And i remember all those
Scars i wear that you carved in me

And i gave you every waking moment
I gave you everything you wanted
And now, I know your giving me up

And i, Can't lie still
When theres someone else beside you
And i, Can cry still
Cuz i'm all alone this time

I gave you everything you wanted
And now, I know your giving me up

Sometimes I try not to hate myself
For everything I never said
When you were here
And so I'm burning up photographs
Of what was a perfect past
'Cause I'm still here
But I'm barely holding on

Where did I go wrong
Choking on the difference
Between me and the world
And ever since you've been gone
I've been torn apart
I know that you can't hear me but
I'm still hurt
And I wish you were here

It's so hard that I try to bury it
Pretend that you didn't exist
So I can be strong
But I feel sick
And I feel diseased
'Cause everyone abandons me
And I can't move along
'Cause I'm barely holding on

Where did I go wrong
Choking on the difference
Between me and the world
And ever since you've been gone
I've been torn apart
I know that you can't hear me but
I'm still hurt
And I wish you were here

I can not pretend you didn't exist
Misery is just a state of mind
Hiding from the world's no way to live
So I'll convince myself that I'll be fine
I'll be fine
But since I lost you I'm barely holding on

Where did I go wrong
Choking on the difference between
Me and the world
And ever since you've been gone
I've been torn apart
I know that you can't hear me but
I'm still hurt

So I look up to the stars
And wonder out loud
Why everything I had in life
Has fallen from my arms
Can you even hear this song?
I'm screaming at the clouds
Screaming to a galaxy
That never cared at all
That I need you here

Cut my eyes on visions of you
Memories aren't clear
I lost touch with the boy I knew
While you were still here

Have you met your god?
Does he know I'm in pain?
Does he even have any plans
For me to see you again?

Morning sadness
So we meet again
Pack your bags 'cause we're leaving
Tonight

Damage done by a lost loved one
You can never forget
Questioning my faith in God
I know evil exists

So I look past the sky
It's where we're going tonight

Morning sadness
So we meet again
Pack your bags 'cause we're leaving
Tonight
On a mission to find her in heaven
Maybe we'll get to sleep next to God tonight

There's a razor with my name
It carves my life away
And I'll find out who's real
Right now

Morning sadness
So we meet again
Pack your bags 'cause we're leaving
It's the only way
To untie the pain
From a heart that has suffered
It's the only way
To untie the pain
From a mind that is strangled

If i lost it all in a fireball would you be there for me
if the moneys gone and the future falls would you walk away
cause my confidence is vanishing will you leave me starving here
to wither down and disappear as you walk away

(...)

i'll never trust, never feel, never love again, i chose this bitter tasting love

they always say true love is all you need
but when the love is gone you need something more
they say true love will never leave
but my true love is gone, and i can't go on

i'm in the catacombs of a broken heart where you used to be
when i loved you for all the reasons that you hated yourself
cause you were desperate and pathetic but just as beautiful to me
as the day you left and i became just a memory

(...)

i'll never trust, never feel, never love again, i chose this bitter tasting love

they always say true love is all you need
but when the love is gone you need more
they say true love will never leave
but my true love is gone, and i can't go on

it's 4 am and i'm picturing the way things used to be
but all i see is your looking at him like you used to look at me

they always say true love is all you need
but when the love is gone you need something more
they say true love will never leave
but my true love is gone, and i can't go on

i can't go on...

I'm frozen as my life is bursting into flames from deep within
I panic, worrying about the future
then the past begins to chase me down
But this time you're the only one around
And I'm staring at a photograph
from before I was sick and addicted to you
it was a perfect life
whatever happened to me?

I can't get out of my way
Again and again
‘cause I'm addicted to you
Again and again
Because I'm dead without you
How will I live through today?

I'm standing at the edge of my life again
Afraid of jumping in
And you're there,
Covering up the holes I went and carved into myself again
Whatever happened to me?

I can't get out of my way
Again and again
‘cause I'm addicted to you
Again and again
Because I'm dead without you
How will I live through
I know that I will find a way
Again and again
Again and again

If I was born to lose it all
I would've given up
but there's a fire in my heart
I can't put it out
sometimes the future's blurry because
sometimes our perfect lives get lost
inside ourselves

I can't get out of my way
again and again
‘cause I'm addicted to you
again and again
because I'm dead without you
how will I live through
I know that I will find a way
again and again
‘cause I'm addicted to you
again and again
because I'm dead without you
how will I live through today?

Tonight is all over,
But we're all still wide awake.
Huddled together,
Just hoping this moment won't fade away.
The sunlight makes it's way up the field toward us again,
Marking the end of this.

Because everyone's going their separate ways,
Sometimes things just change.
But we'll never forget who we were that day,
So don't be afraid,
'Cause we'll be okay.

Carved out our love,
And we all broke our hearts together.
These are the times that define who we are forever.
It's hard to leave,
You're just memories that I'm thinking of,
That mark the end of this.

Because everyone's going their separate ways,
Sometimes things just change.
But we'll never forget who we were that day,
So don't be afraid,
'Cause we'll be okay.

And sometimes it's hard,
When every thing changes.
Sometimes it feels,
Like the world's unfolding.
This when the impossible,
Becomes possible.

It's hard to leave,
You're just memories that I'm thinking of,
That mark the end of this.

Because everyone's going their separate ways,
Sometimes things just change.
But we'll never forget who we were that day,
So don't be afraid,
'Cause we'll be okay.

So un-afraid,
We hadn't lived.
We'll be okay.
When not a care,
In the whole world.
We'll be okay.

[Originally by Smashing Pumpkins]

Today is the greatest
Day I've ever known
I can't live for tomorrow
Tomorrow's much too long
I'll burn my eyes out, yeah
Before I get out

I wanted more
Than life could ever grant me
Bored by the chore
Of saving face

Today is the greatest
Day I've ever known
Can't wait for tomorrow
I might not have that long
I'll tear my heart out
Before I get out

Pink ribbon scars
I never forget
I tried so hard
To cleanse these regrets
My angel wings
Are bruised and restrained
My belly stings

Today is
Today is
Today is
The greatest day

I wanna turn you on
I wanna turn you on
I wanna turn you on
I wanna turn you on