Fuel Album

I wanted to feel something
To be something
To see something

I wanted to find
One thing that was mine
And leave this behind
But I can't find my way
To get far away
And bury these days

Fantasy 
Once reality
Becomes such a parody

If I could find
One thing that was mine
I'd leave this behind
But I can't find my way
To get far away
And bury these days

If shining
Or if shaking
It's reality faking

If I could find 
One thing that was mine
I'd leave this behind
But I can't find my way
To get far away
And bury these days

Seven sins of wantonness and
Everything that's good is gone
Sell it all for glory from the peers
Silicone priestess scratch the back and
twists the knife to bone
Kick against the pricks and scrape the shins

I'm the enemy in the enemies now

CHORUS:
Swallowed the pill
Drank to the fill
All these things I carry now
In this bittersweet, in this bittersweet now

Try to hold the world there sinking,
swimming in a paper cup
Try to own the one beneath the skin
Held up to the flame 'till singeing
skin begins to draw and tuck
Never told there's a chance to win

What couldn't be, wouldn't be now

CHORUS

Hold your hands up to the sky and try
so hard to rise above
But everything is beating down

CHORUS

She calls me from the cold 
Just when I was low, feeling short of stable 
And all that she intends 
And all she keeps inside, isn't on the label 
She says she's ashamed 
And she can take me for a while 
And can I be a friend, we'll forget the past 
But maybe I'm not able 

And I break at the bend 

We're here and now, but will we ever be again 
Cause I have found 
All that shimmers in this world is sure to fade 
Away again 

She dreams the champagne dream 
Strawberry surprise, pink linen with white paper 
Lavender and cream 
Fields of butterflies, reality escapes her 
She says that love is for fools that fall behind 
And I'm somewhere in between 
I never really know 
A killer from a savior 

And I break at the bend 

We're here and now, but will we ever be again 
Cause I have found 
All that shimmers in this world is sure to fade 
Away again 

It's too far away for me to hold 
It's too far away- 3x

Guess I'll let it go

Walk away, I walk the wire
And my fields are burning in the flames
Feel my way, blind in the mire
Struggling from your voice inside my head

CHORUS:
But now everything's trying to drag me down
But I'll rip the sky from the ground
But tell me now, who's my saving one
Jesus or a gun?

Stripped away my last desire
Nothing comes and nothing's sent away
Happiness I couldn't hire
Struggling from these thoughts inside my head

CHORUS

All that's safer falls from my favor
When it's over who will cry for me

If's safe to say I don't desire
Everything you push inside my head
And I'll reject it until I'm dead

CHORUS

The sky was dark this morning
Not a bird in the trees
And silence hung suspicious and anxious
Like a blanket covered scream

And you were gone
You were not there for me
And I cursed the sky and begged the sun to
Fall all over me
This life's not living, baby
Living ain't free
If I can't find my way back to me
Let the sun fall down over me
Let the sun fall down

All my friends are searching
Quiet, desperately
Look into their eyes you'll see the faithless crying
Save me, save me, save me

And what are they to feel
And who are they to be
And what am I to do with, do with me, but let the sun
Fall all over me
This life's not living, baby
Living ain't free
If I can't find my way back to me
Let the sun fall down over me
Let the sun fall down

Until my eyes cry out
Til my head is free from doubt
Til my lungs sigh right out
Til I'm wiser

Let the sun 
Fall all over me
This life ain't living
Living ain't free
If I can't find my way back to me
Let the sun fall down over me
Let the sun fall down

Take me out alive
Take me out it's all so stale
Give me another life
Excuse me if I tried and failed

And I don't mind if I fall
It's not that far at all

CHORUS:
I got a new thing, it's so inspired
It's not the real thing, but it's for me
Because the real thing I don't desire
So it's the new thing I choose for me
Denial comfort me

Built the gallows high
You gave me plans and silver nails
The architects of pride
But I'm the one you're hanging now

And I don't mind if I fall
It's not that far at all

CHORUS

And I don't mind if I fall
It's not that far at all

CHORUS

And I found my head uncrowned and all life's sweet nectar flowing down
the cracks and seams wasted on some petty little prayers
And I 
reached up for despair but I was well below that cherished stage
and all my mangled hopes all songs unsung

CHORUS:
I fear I've wasted all my sun
I fear I've wasted all my time
Everything is faded
Smiles are fabricated now
I fear I've wasted all my sun
I fear I've wasted all my time
Held my eyes closed for too long

And I ran out through the streets in hopes that I might find it there
but all my buildings stared back at me tenantless and bar
and I 
reached up for the sky, but it always seemed so far away
transcendent thoughts you gave lie atrophied and broken

CHORUS

And I sat when I should have stood; swallowed when I should have spit
until now I only recognize me in pictures taken long ago
and 
all the changes simply haunt and never go away
a friend will tell when I hit hell, I may not feel the change

Held my eyes closed for too long
Held my eyes closed for too long

Just before I go don't you offer any sweet advice because
where were all your shoulders when I needed them so long ago
and 
now with legs weak and weary from this silly dance
with a suitcase full of memories, I pack my bags and slowly drift away

It's all I want 
It's all I needed now it's through 
It all comes back to you 
The only one 
The one I needed I abuse 
More color for the bruise 

So I sing this song for you 
There's nothing left for me to do 

Goodbye dear one 
Venus I thought you'd bless me too 
So selfish to presume 

So I sing this song for you 
And I hope that what is true 
Will find a way to you 
I sing this song for you 

Venus never showed the way 
The stars would not be sold 
Heaven stole the light of day 
And we were never told 
So dark the day- 
So much for life, for life and love 

And now it's done 
The color always changes hue 
Bright to black and blue 

So I sing this song for you 
And I hope that what is true 
Will find a way to you 
I sing this song for you 

So I sing this song for you 
There's nothing left for me to do

Mary pretends she's so insane, so insane, so insane 
Mary pretends she's so insane, so insane, so insane 
She just sits back and laughs at the pain 
Laughs at the pain, laughs at the pain 
Mary pretends she's so insane, so insane, so insane 

Falling down of her mind 
Gives her everything she's wanted from the world 
Close her eyes, drift inside, so alive 

She wants to know what it feels like 
She wants to know how to fly 
She wants to know what it feels like to die 
Goodbye

I wanna make her go 
I wanna make her come 
I wanna push her away 
Don't wanna feel no pain 
Don't wanna feel no shame 
Don't wanna feel this way 
I'm so alone here 
Why must I be 

I'm the one she calls ozone baby 
She waits alone for me to come down 
But I want to fly like a silly angel 
Aim for the sky, straight into the sun 

I wanna make her feel 
I wanna make it real 
I wanna give her away 
She wanna keep me here 
She wanna hold me dear 
She wanna make me stay 
She's so alone here 
She don't need me 

I'm the one she calls ozone baby 
She waits alone for me to come down 
But I want to fly like a silly angel 
Aim for the sky, straight into the sun 

My sun, on you, burning, singe you 
Confined, inside, rot from my lies, sucker 

I'll only hold you down 
I'll only steal your crown 
I'll only make you cry 
I'll only break your pride 
And eat you up inside 
Why should you even try 
I'm so alone here 
Why must I be 

I'm the one she calls ozone baby 
She waits alone for me to come down 
But I want to fly like a silly angel 
Aim for the sky, straight into the sun 

Sucker, sucker, sucker, sucker, sucker, etc.....to finish

Hideaway, take me now 
I cannot face another round 
And I'm flipping through these pages 
For a name to take my place 
Close my eyes, wish that I could find a place 
To hideaway 

Troubled days cloud my eyes 
Stole the sun from my skies 
And in this darkness I am tossing, turning 
Lying wide awake 
Hold my breath, wish that I could find a place 
To hideaway 

Hideaway, take me now 
I cannot face another round