Charlotte Martin Album

I dig my heels into the dirt cause this one's gonna hurt
Won't let the waves wash me away is what I always pray
In my heart I know you didn't see in the dark or find your way through me
Now I'm alone my hands are numb how do I carry on

At the turn of the tide I feel this part of me die
Am I washed on your shore and barely alive?

Now I'm held hostage in my head with every word you said
God all those lessons in my past I spit them out so fast I
See myself
With you I act so small see myself with you I always crawl
So someone leave a raft for me the water's getting deep

At the turn of the tide I feel this part of me die
Am I washed on your shore and barely alive?

Here I am in my insecurity
Here I am with my damaged dignity
Here I am you're pulling me in too deep
Here I am
Here I am, I'm in the mercy seat
Here I am, running without my feet
Here I am, oh what's come over me
Here I am

When I was melting in your hand you didn't understand
You slip through me like grains of sand you still don't understand
Overboard I'm thrown out to see what you are and what I mean to me
But I will always have my dream where you can swim to me

At the turn of the tide I feel this part of me die
I've been on your shore before and it was no waste of time
Over my head and in my mind
Am I washed on your shore and barely alive

I can't cry, I can't understand
Can't we give in or give up my plan?
And we were swimming in the water with no hands

And I will never quit the fight
I'll push the limits of our love
And every passing day and night
I'll push the limits of our love
And everything will be all right
I'll push the limits of our love
To see how far it goes, goes where nobody knows

You're the light on the darkest me
Don't back out 'cause you cannot see
And though our instincts say that we should turn and run

And I will never quit the fight
I'll push the limits of our love
And every passing day and night
I'll push the limits of our love
And everything will be all right
I'll push the limits of our love
To see how far it goes, goes where nobody knows

And when the world is crashing down
I'll throw it on my back for you
When you're paralyzed and bound
I'll be waging war, my love
My love, my love

And I will never quit the fight
I'll push the limits of our love
And every passing day and night
I'll push the limits of our love
And everything will be all right
I'll push the limits of our love

Would you like the chance to shatter heaven?
Would you like to be the one who pulls the sky down just for me?
Round and round and round we run, and pretend the sun is all you need

I've never known a moment to be frozen
You're making deals with minutes that will slip away, just slip away
So starve the garden stop the rain-
Winter settles on my petals anyways…anyways

Is your armor thin again
Do I want to wear it down?
Am I worthy to come in?
Do you want to be found?

Nothing into something into nothing
Every rule you break means there's no turning back, no looking back.
The words that I could never say -
The clutter that is in your way is nothing new..nothing new

Is your armor thin again?
Do I want to wear it down?
Am I worthy to come in?
Do you want to be found?
Is your armor thin again?
Do I want to wear it down?
Am I worthy to come in?
Do you want to be found…

Wandering between the girl you search for and the one you leave
And I cannot wait..
Chasing you around the room is tempting
So near and far away from meaning anything to you-
But just remember if you're jumping, I would start my jump off
Running after you..

Is your armor thin again?
Do I want to wear it down?
Am I worthy to come in?
Do you want to be found?
Is your armor thin again?
Do I want to wear it down?
Am I worthy to come in?
Am I worthy to come in?
Am I worthy to come in?
Do you want to be found?

Every time it rains I listen to the sky
I wonder what's so great about sunshine
So everybody lives and everybody dies
And no one's gonna love you like I do
(when it was getting dark
I didn't need a match
I never need a light to see you
You thought I'd disappear but
I was always here, oh
I could never get that far from you, though)
I misunderstand
And been misunderstood
Love me cause you can and
Not because you should

Every time it rains
I know it's good to be alive
Every time it rains
I know I'm trying to survive

Take it as it comes and take me as I am
I never was a good imposter
But I know how to dream
And don't know where I stand
I'm willing to admit I try to hard
Stop playing with my heart
I'm waiting by the phone
Afraid to be myself
Afraid to be alone

But every time it rains
(yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah)
I know it's good to be alive
Every time it rains
(yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah)
I know I'm trying to survive
And every time it rains
I'm gonna hide myself inside

Every time it rains
Every time I fall
Every time I crawl and crawl and crawl
If I'm gonna beg, I'm gonna see it all
Gonna bleed it all
And you know I'll scream and scream and scream

Every time it rains
I know I'm trying to survive..
I know it's good to be alive

The lost and insincere
They think I need to hear what's in their empty eyes, eyes, eyes
We're few and far between
We've hardly been serene
But we stand up to their lies, lies, lies
We are steel
We don't feel anything at all

He took me in his arms
But then he squeezed too hard
He wouldn't let me breathe, breathe, breathe

It's been too many years
I've hurt too many times
To give up everything, thing, thing

I am steel
I don't feel anything at all

The way I've been confused
The way that I've been used
And spit out on your dime
And still you lead me on
And still you take me down
And say it's in my mind

Well I've seen hell and back
I've hidden in the dark with
No one there at all, all, all

I've scraped us back to life
I've laced up both my boots
So try and twist the knife, knife, knife

I am steel
I don't feel anything at all
We are steel
We don't feel anything at all
We don't feel anything at all
Anything at all

Ode to joy, my lover boy's speaking in tongues
And the sky's bleeding gray
Now I pull my bag o' prayers out
I hope to find one to save the day

And he judged my love, my lust
My taste with the straightest face
As I crumple up inside
A papier-mache, a shell with no name

Sweet chariot
Come, come, take me away from my fear
Sweet chariot
Come, I have to get out of here

And he took me further than I wanted to go
Underneath his shoe
And it leaves me hungry for a touch I can't feel
A touch he won't do
And I thought the circle, it had an end
I'm old enough to know
My denial is how we began and how we will end
And now that I know

Sweet chariot
Come, come, take me away from my fear
Sweet chariot
Come, I have to get out of here

Oh, the blood that's in my veins
So cold and frozen from the stings
Oh, he comes and goes in waves
Am I really here?

Sweet chariot
Come, come, take me away from my fear
Sweet chariot
Can we leave him a trail of my tears?
Sweet chariot
It's been, it's been the longest of years
Sweet chariot

I woke up this morning and my head, I started roaming
Now nothing's right, nothing's right
Don't remember being born, don't know why we're being torn
Now nothing's right, nothing's right
I open up my mouth just to let the demon shout
'Bout my dirty little schemes, that the wettest of my dreams are you
Nothing's right, nothing's right

Over and over I'm feeling the same of loneliness
And under me, under me feeling the madman

I'm breaking off a piece of what's left of what was me
But it feels all right, it feels all right
I'm laying on your road 'cause I thought that it might hold
It feels all right, feels all right
Do I wanna take a bet, is this as good as it'll get?
And I cannot get away from the comfortable, familiar chains
Nothing's right, nothing's right

Over and over I'm feeling the same of loneliness
And under me, under me feeling the madman
Over and over it's chilling, the things I've let you miss
And if you're a miracle, I am the madman

And I'm sorry I didn't build your walls and
I'm sorry I had to go and fall and
I'm sorry I had the whole thing wrong and
Well I guess I'm the sorriest of all
And I'm sorry that you are feeling small and
I'm sorry that I'm not used to crawling
I'm sorry the writing's on the wall and
Well I guess I'm the sorriest
I guess I'm the sorriest of all

I woke up this morning and my head, it started roaming
Now nothing's right, nothing's right
Don't remember being born, don't know why we're being torn
Now nothing's right, nothing's right
You said you don't identify with my sort of petrified outlook
On the pride that I've managed to ignore so long
Nothing's right
Nothing's right
Nothing's right
Nothing's right
But it seems all right

It's 3 a.m. and I have been
In my head for quite some time.
Every fear, every tear has been swirling in my mind
And there are still a 100 reasons
I shouldn't walk away.
Do I love you if I leave you?
You had no name.

I was up all night
Waiting for some kind of miracle.
I was up all night
Feeling alone in the universe.
I was up all night.

When morning comes
I will tell you (tell you)
It's life I have to chase.
With every song that I sing
Will be written by your face.

And if you're really meant to be
Then you'll be back again.
And I watch as your beginning
Turns into the end.

I was up all night
Waiting for some kind of miracle.
I was up all night
Feeling alone in the universe.
I was up all night.
If it is you, or if it is me that you save
I'm still throwing it all away.
I was up all night.

With a kick inside
In the dark you hide.
And we both know how the end will be.
In your little tide (??),
With your eyes shut wide
And we both know how the end will be (how the end will be).

I was up all night
Waiting for some kind of miracle.
I was up all night
Feeling alone in the universe.
I was up all night.
If it is you, or if it is me that you save
I'm still throwing it all away.

Watch yourself
Before you crawl inside somebody else.
Were you here
To trap me like a 1000 bottle of tears?

Even though you disappeared
With no goodbye
I see you almost everywhere
You're everywhere

I'm haunted
And all I see is you
I'm haunted
And all I need is you.

There is no one else
There is no one else
Except for you.

I still dream
I won't give up
Until I wear your ring
(come close violate me)
Violate
And if you do it
Try not to be late

A hundred winters made the spring insane
A hundred nights without you
I'm not okay
I'm not okay

I'm haunted
And all I see is you
I'm haunted
And all I need is you

I can't go too far
To find out where you are

I'm haunted
And all I see is you
I'm haunted

And everyone is you.

There is no one else
There is no one else
The memory burns
So deep in my heart
Through the hollow hours

You're close to me.

I can feel
I can feel
I can feel
I can feel
I can feel
I can feel

I'm haunted
I'm haunted

I'm haunted
And all I see is you.
I'm haunted
And everyone is you.

There is no one else
There is no one else
There is no one else

Her hands are in the air again
Stripped of pride
She was waiting for a sign to be let in
She tried to stop a train for him
Without shoes
And he was so amused, amused

She needs a reason to parade on
She needs a new road to pave
She needs a reason to parade on
It's wearing her outsides thin
There's someone there to save

You wonder why she gives and gives
Till it burns
And there is nothing he can give her in return
She'll live and die by make-believe
Her frozen heart
Well he can't wait around while she gets blown apart

She needs a reason to parade on
She needs a new road to pave
She needs a reason to parade on
It's wearing her outsides thin
There's someone there to save

The distance won't know which way you should go
'Cause we are not built so we can float
We are what we are
But that seems so far
Parting the Red Sea is easier, easier

It's time to introduce herself
She's dethroned
Like some lonesome dusty book upon his shelf

She needs a reason to parade on
She needs a new road to pave
She needs a reason to parade on
It's wearing her outsides thin
There's someone there to save, oh
And there's nothing I can say

Hello boys
Got directions to the bombshell factory?
And a bowflexing nightmare tendency?
Hesitate, where's the tape my retired beauty queen?

Hello girls
Truth can make you stare into the mirror for hours.
And could lipgloss save a nation mr.powers?
Come into what's my own disappear zone-close my ears

Close my eyes
In the world of a stupid girl and in her stupid dress size...
So who are we? who's the judge, and are you something like a hero?

No mistakes..
Different versions of the girl right next to you..
And I'm knocking on your door and can't get through.
And I cry and I sigh and I try to
Close my ears

Close my eyes
In the world of a stupid girl and in her pettiest of lies...
So who are we? who's the judge and are you
Something like a hero?

Dull sensations, push them to the walls
And the thorns that fall, have the guts to walk upon them all

Halfway there
I was waiting by the phone for you to care
And I can't make a seed grow anywhere-
So I wait, so I wait, are you out there?
Close my eyes

I close my ears
In the world of a stupid girl and in her shallowest of fears...
So who are we? who's the judge and are you something like a hero?
Are you something like a hero?

(album version has "chant and scramble" here)
And I'm all for it and I don't know, and not for sure if I'm face down frowned
on the ground or if the devil's gonna get me if I make make make make myself
into a wave out there and I'm never gonna ache like this again and I'm never
gonna 'scape from here.

So I swim and you keep me keep me and I'm turning half blue true and I'm on on
on, out out out out of last words, last words? and I'm half baked and I side
stroke- side go- slide go. Pain pain pain no pain. Pain pain pain no pain. Choke
choke choke lift me out, sift me out- keep me Lord keep me Lord so I won't go
down down down keep me in the rhythm as I float out of my misery oh and I'm far
too gone, and I'm far too gone oh and I'm far too hey. I'm far too gone oh I'm
far too gone for you to go there. And I'm far too gone for you to go there honey

You can't judge the love by the lover
The sky by it's thunder
The road with no sign

You can't make the snow fall in summer
Or make him not want her
Not leave it behind

Maybe you'll stay in touch years down the road
And hope that he's still in your mind

The sun may come up and go down again
I'll still swear it's a beautiful life

Maybe we'll meet up in denver
Talk about weather
Talk of old times

I know every word that we said
Was what we both meant
Well we meant it at the time

Promise me that you'll be standing up straight
Chasing rivers, and shadows, and time

The sun may come up and go down again
And I'll still swear it's a beautiful life

Time flies, time cries
Oh time flies, time cries

So swim to the end of the river
Until there's no shiver
Left in your spine
Live like there won't be tomorrow
See through your sorrow
See through your own eyes

Try to remember these days down the road and
Try to remember this time

The sun may come up and go down again
I'll still swear it's a beautiful life

The sun may come up
The sun may go down
The sun may come up
The san may go down
Oh the sun may come up
The sun may go down

Childhood living
Is easy to do
The things that you wanted
Well I bought them for you

Graceless lady
You know who I am
You know I can't let you
Just slide through my hands

And wild horses couldn't drag me away
And wild horses couldn't drag me away

I watched you suffer
A dull aching pain
And now you've decided
To show me the same

No sweeping exits
Or offstage lines
Could make me feel bitter
Or treat you unkind

And wild horses couldn't drag me away
And wild horses couldn't drag me away

I know I've dreamt you
A sin and a lie
And I have my freedom
But I don't have much time

Fate has been suffered
And tears must be cried
So let's do some living
After we die

And wild horses couldn't drag me away
And wild horses couldn't drag me away
And wild horses couldn't drag me away