Mushroomhead Album

How am I supposed to think?
Can I feel?
My hands are numb, my feet
Oh no the rain came down plucked my sight elevation, elevation, elevation
How am I supposed to think now?
What's in my head now?
Like a cheap parlor trick slight of hand and the blood covers a soul,
Any day now what do I feel when I awake?
Where am I from when I am lost?
I feel so low,
I said my hands are numb, my feet
Oh no, elevation I said my hands are numb, my feet
Oh no, elevation
And every time I get up they're pulling me down
Can't get my feet up off the ground,
I said my hands are numb, my feet oh no.

I'm always excusing myself
But now it's getting hard to tell the reason why I even care
Increasingly I'm unaware
Instead of bettering myself I'm crawlin' deeper in my shell
The whole point that I am alive
Seems to escape me at this time
I think too much nothing
Too much I've never known how to behave
I've never strayed far from the grave

With a guilt ridden frown hidden smiling deep down
Laughing at the crowd nauseating sound as the blind
Lead the blind on a crusade for sight corralled in the corner
This leash is too tight i can't keep up this act
Please expand the role choking on dialogue
You've all heard before with a guilt ridden frown hidden smiling
Deep down dying inside paint a smile on this clown
Tainted face jaded by disgrace regurgitate your faith
Fornicate your mind all that hides inside roll around,
Defecate, compensate the mess,
You made no escaping,
From the end ego trip-punishment falling down

Mother may I? Mother may I please go outside and play?
Don't put me back in the dark I promise I will not tell anyone mother may I?
Mother may I please share our little secret of love?
The way that you touch me, should I feel shame?
Mother may I?
Mother may I please feel your warm embrace?
Mother may I?
I feel your hands on my face no you can't go out

I hold your throat within my naked hand
I can never hope to have you hear my word
I lose control at the sight of blood
I visit you through six feet of soil bitch!
I'm mad as hell, mad as hell
Why can't you understand the words shut up?
Why, in gods name did you think you ruled the world?
I am the punch line jokes can be cruel hi honey I'm home

Distraught in deprived thought within a golden rave I make
In a point of being pointless brainwash it all away distressed
And I detest vain in a shade of gray telegraphing
All of my punches couldn't fight my way out of a cardboard box
And in my own small way I make an indifferent, difference I realize,
I fantasize, I apologize crawling under a rock I hold up
A white flag I could of been,
I should of been I'm just a has been I hold a white flag responsibility,
Rationale, religion I hold my head down in disgust distressed

Beat like a dog, pissing all over shit on the rug,
Lie down and roll over,
Shove my nose in the floor make me think about
What I have done pledge your dependencies,
Soon jealousies, tendencies turn secrets we share,
Into weapons of warfare,
Bleed like the creep that I have become face down in shit
And I want you to beat me senseless what have I done,

Mind hemorrhage
fuckin' folding chairs in the hallway
crucified,
paralyzed,
you laugh, I cry
calculating my miscalculations
what is the sign
for I'm choking to death?
There's something caught in my throat
could it be something I've said?
Sighted blind,
Braille is fine,
two black eyes,
are you a badass or just a fuckin' asshole?
There's too much, not enough
God and dog
well I've seen a dog
I'll take my chances
and sleep like a log,
hard in the ground,
dig?
God,
dog,
God,
dog agnostic,
insomniac,
dyslexic I'm wide awake